On November 2, 2013 it will mark a year since my grandfather passed from prostate and bone cancer. Ill admit I still don't know how to deal with it, it just doesn't feel real. You go from spending every day with someone and then it changes in a blink of an eye. During this hard time in my life I really have been struggling with my anxiety and panic attacker. I guess you could say I been an emotional wreck, but I know my grandfather would not want me to just sit around and cry about his passing.
Lately I've been reading a lot of the Bible and just trying to be a better Christian. It's very important for me to have a strong relationship with God, God has truly blessed me in so many ways in my life. He helped me overcome cancer and I remind myself every day if it wasn't for him I would not be here today. I'm learning that I need to start living my life day by day and not worry so much about the future and not think about all the negative things that has happened in the past. I'm a survivor and I'm strong, and I'm strong enough to be able to fight all my depression, my anxiety and just be happy. I'm so blessed to have such an amazing support system, Billy has been my rock. I love him so much.
Okay, okay! I'm done being emotional now! Update on Billy and I, on August 29 Billy and I celebrated our three-year anniversary. In the hospital. Billy broke his tibia/fibula in three spots. We still from this day do not know how it exactly happened, but I really hope it doesn't happen again. Billy has a full leg cast, which he should be getting off this week ;) It has been so hectic since Billy has had this cast on, he has been having a lot of leg spasms and to be honest I've really been scared to move him around in bed when getting him up and dressed. I'm scared to break him more :)
But I'll keep you guys updated and I promise I won't be going on anymore vacations.
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