August 29th 2010

       Today is Mine and Billy 2 years anniversary! I can't believe two years have gone by already. I'm so blessed to have a man like Billy in my life, I always wonder how i got so lucky with him ;)

   Around 1am i struggled with a huge panic attack. I was struggling so bad i wanted to go to the hospital, But i kept saying to myself that i'm not going to ruin our anniversary...

      Ahhh I keep getting distracted because Billy's nurse has Honey Boo Boo and i sadly can't stop watching it.. ANYWAYS back to what i was saying.

So i struggled until 3 am and was finally able to go to sleep. l

Later on i went to Billy's and I felt more calm. When i have panic attacks and they get bad like this one was, i could feel horrible for about a week or maybe even 2. Some people think panic attacks aren't nothing serious, but i have severe attacks and it makes me so depressed because doctors say that this is permanent :(

Around 4pm Billy and I went to Applebee's for dinner. Billy was craving Steak, so he of course got steak and fries & I got three cheese Chicken Penne. It was yummy!!!

When we was done, we was waiting for transportation to come and Billy yelled "Babe, something fell from the tree and hit me", I laughed because his face was priceless. But i go over and look, there to find bird poop on his sleeve. It freaking looked like guacamole. ughh soo gross.
Transportation was almost an hour late! it was crazyy, so Billy and I spent that time window shopping and taking crazy pics together. We had a blast!

Earlier in the day, Billy & I met this guy, We never got his name. But he was a old gentlemen, nice as can be.  He started saying this quotes & completely amazed us. (Sorry I can't remember it) but Billy was like can u say that again, & this man started singing. here to come its a song            called "I Understand" by Smokie Norful. It was amazing, I loved it and really needed it because i was still feeling yucky because of my attack. Thank You God!! He is so amazing!!