August 29th 2010

       Today is Mine and Billy 2 years anniversary! I can't believe two years have gone by already. I'm so blessed to have a man like Billy in my life, I always wonder how i got so lucky with him ;)

   Around 1am i struggled with a huge panic attack. I was struggling so bad i wanted to go to the hospital, But i kept saying to myself that i'm not going to ruin our anniversary...

      Ahhh I keep getting distracted because Billy's nurse has Honey Boo Boo and i sadly can't stop watching it.. ANYWAYS back to what i was saying.

So i struggled until 3 am and was finally able to go to sleep. l

Later on i went to Billy's and I felt more calm. When i have panic attacks and they get bad like this one was, i could feel horrible for about a week or maybe even 2. Some people think panic attacks aren't nothing serious, but i have severe attacks and it makes me so depressed because doctors say that this is permanent :(

Around 4pm Billy and I went to Applebee's for dinner. Billy was craving Steak, so he of course got steak and fries & I got three cheese Chicken Penne. It was yummy!!!

When we was done, we was waiting for transportation to come and Billy yelled "Babe, something fell from the tree and hit me", I laughed because his face was priceless. But i go over and look, there to find bird poop on his sleeve. It freaking looked like guacamole. ughh soo gross.
Transportation was almost an hour late! it was crazyy, so Billy and I spent that time window shopping and taking crazy pics together. We had a blast!

Earlier in the day, Billy & I met this guy, We never got his name. But he was a old gentlemen, nice as can be.  He started saying this quotes & completely amazed us. (Sorry I can't remember it) but Billy was like can u say that again, & this man started singing. here to come its a song            called "I Understand" by Smokie Norful. It was amazing, I loved it and really needed it because i was still feeling yucky because of my attack. Thank You God!! He is so amazing!!

                           




   

Woahhh (in Jesse from Full House voice) ;)

     This has definitely been a crazy week!

I witnessed a horrible car accident the other day after i took my God Daughter home. Never have i ever saw something like this in real life. It was like i was watching a movie. No Joke.
    So here's what happened i seen this old man just speeding down the street and i have notice his head was down, then BAM! he slammed into another car and I seen this old man flying out the front windshield. Not even giving one sec to think, i ran out to the victims to see if they were ok. I was not prepared to see what i saw. Lets just put it that way. I'm not going into details. The old man that was speeding was actually trying to fight people. I mean he just got thrown through the car window, that's no big deal at all. GOSH
  As for the other Victim he was not in good shape at all, he had gashes everywhere, couldn't speak, just in complete shock. It seemed forever till the squad came. I just had to keep talking to the other guy and just reassure him that everything was going to be okay, but i really didn't know. I was thinking the whole time, i'm not going to let this guy die on me.
   I wonder everyday since this accident, how both of those guy are doing. All I can do though is pray and hope they have a healthy recovery.


      On to some good news.
   I went to have dinner with one of my good friends and we decided to go to Red Robins because it was closer to my house. Well as we walk in and get seated. I noticed the guy behind us had ENORMOUS feet. I mean BIG HUGE FEET. I looked at him and look he looked familiar. Understand this is guy was so huge, he couldn't even fit in a booth. When i say huge i don't mean heavy, i mean tall wise. But all I kept doing was staring at him, I couldn't figure out who he was. so I decided to ask the waitress. ;) and she told me they thought it was Greg Oden. All i can say is Thank God for Google! Google is amazing. I immediately googled Greg Oden and sure enough, there was his face. I was like a little kid on christmas morning. I called Billy right away to brag but of course he ruined that because he was out walking Valentine. But  when i did tell him, he thought i was crazy. I told him fine look on Facebook. He felt stupid.
 All and All that was pretty awesome!
     
    Well gotta cook my Fiance (love it) dinner! <3
Everyone stay safe and Wear your seat belts.

 xoxo Beth

what's on my mind today!

    Since Billy popped the question my mind has been totally all on wedding ideas and finding a place for us to live, but its so hard when your on a fixed income of some sort. i've been looking at apartments and the one thing that i tend to run into with all of them, is that they have a waiting list for like 2 years for apartments that are wheelchair accessible. When i go into leasing building at the apartments and ask about their handicap accessible apartments, the workers look at me like i'm stupid and it made me furious. They were so rude. I mean one apartment, whatever, but when you get treated like this by all 10 apartments. its uncalled for.
   
  One thing that makes me sick to my stomach with people is that, they look and see someone in a wheelchair and will treat them like crap or talk to them like they are babies. These people that are in wheelchairs are just the same as any other human-being but God just made them a little bit more special. There is no need to treat people like that.

  Billy goes on daily walks with Valentine and He is always a people person, Don't know a stranger in the world. when he goes out, if he has any problems he usually ask someone if he can use their phone and he tells me about these people that just ignore him and walk away. I wish those people put themselves in Billy's or anybody else who is also in a wheelchair and just get a feel of what wheelchair bound people deal with on a daily bases. I know it doesn't bother Billy like it bothers me, but everytime i see this i just want to yell at them. GRRRR  I'm sorry i just had to get that out. Please let me know if you ever experienced the same problems and im not the only one.  :)

    On to more POSITIVE things! The wedding, we aren't sure when were going to get married yet but i really hope its next year. I can't wait to marry Billy. Is it bad, that almost every night i have a dream about our wedding?? I'm excited what can i say :) I've been thinking about how we would do our First Dance since  Billy is a Quad. Any tips? But i got our colors down but i want it to be a surprise ;) Another thing i've been thinking about is if i'm going to hyphenate my last name (Marchese-George) or just keep it George. Ha I know some of you are probably laughing right now. But these are serious things ;)
  But im getting off here and watching the rest of the Dallas game and going to try to wake Mr. George up from his nap. :)

     Billy & Amaiya! OUR God Daughter <3