Love, Bethany

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my poor baby

Billy finally sleeping without 3 days of sleep

         Sitting here looking out the hospital window. Can't wait to get out of here so Billy & I can be home with our pups. Never did I think we was going to be here for 5 days. 

Billy giving the nurses on hard time ;)

         Wednesday Billy was scheduled to get surgery to get a new Baclofen Pump. That morning Billy was struggling with breathing because his chest was very congested. The surgeons was afraid to operate on him because they felt that if they continued on with the surgery, the vent that they put in could get stuck, which would lead him having to be in ICU. Neither of us wanted to take chances with that. After that we was waiting to get discharged an Billy started to get worse & worse, so they kept us and we have been here for 5 days, we are very much wanting to go home.  With Billy being sick he has been having his mind on getting his tract back, :( he said when he had the tract, things were a lot better. I personally don't think he needs it but i mean i don't know how he felt when he had it but what i do know is that he is struggling now. I plan on supporting Billy with whatever choice he makes. We are a team and it will always be that way. I know if i had to make a decision about something to do with my health and staying healthy he would totally be by my side. I get scared, i mean i have the right to be.  I guess i tend to dwell on things, when i say things i mean the negative things. But i always tell myself that, that is just the devil working on me. But i decided not to really worry about it now until the time comes. All i care about is that he is healthy. We are get taking our the time to fix all the problems that could relate to making be him sick like this. Since his accident he has always had a fan on him of some sort, well his nurse told him that having that fan, is part of the reason why he has been so congested. With Billy being a quadriplegic his body can not regulate its own temperature, so he is constantly hot. Well maybe he just might be to dependent on the fan, so without it, he is overly heated.

        From today on, I'm putting my foot down and there will not be anymore sick Billy. I'm not having it! I want him to be healthy & I'm going to do anything in my power to keep him that way.