Opening Eyes

      Life is always full with some kind of excitement, being good or bad.
Have you ever thought if you were making the right decision when doing something? Most of us do. But what about when it comes to friends?

       Recently i've dealt with problems with a friend. Its gotten to the point to where when i'm with her i always have so much anger in me and to people would do know me know im definitely not that type of person. I've started opening my eyes an realizing that this relationship that her & I have is not a friendly relationship. A True Friend is a friend that is there for you, a friend gives you a push when your struggling or just not sure about something. Friends don't disrespect you infront of others & put you down. thats not a friend one bit!
With "her" the problem that is so hard to over come is that we've been friends since 8th grade. That's a long time. i'm currently 23 and she's 22 were not kids anymore. But when we get into arguments it just pushes me further and further away from her. When we go with out talking to each other i always think about the past and the good times we have together, which always sucks me in to talk to her again. I hate the fact that i do do that, because to me it really sad. that i cant just say no & leave me alone. 
       
        I sat down an talked to another good friend of mine about this problem, She opened my eyes completely. For me dealing with Panic Attacks and Depression i learned that being around "her" is effecting me in many ways and its not good for my health at all, to have so much negativity in my life. I plan to look to God for his guidance. I always say to myself, "If God didn't think we would not be able to handle things, he wouldn't have thrown it our way". Thinking of that constantly just tells me that i'm able to get away from all the negative things in my life. Without the Lord, Family & Friends i would probably be insane right now. But I plan to end my friendship with "her" and just starting a more healthier and positive life for me & people who are surround me. 


      Never let your friends treat you like your worth nothing! 
       
  -Bethany