Power of Prayer

Past couple weeks has been hard.
My Grandma was admitted into the hospital 2.5 weeks ago & is still there :(
she has Pneumonia & problems with CHF (congestive heart failure)

Since October, she has been living in a assist living home. (it's what she wanted)
Her health has been declining ever since Poppy died in 2012.
She has lost a lot weight & countless other things.

While she has been in the hospital, the doctors found tumors in her stomach,
we aren't sure if they are cancerous but, the doctor thinks they are just fatty tumors.

Don't worry we are still getting them tested!

This past weekend she was suppose to get discharged and transferred to a rehab facility for therapy because she is just beyond weak.

Well, that didn't happen!

This Morning I wake up to bad news. (best thing first thing in the morning, NOT)
My dad informed me they had to give her 2 pints of blood because she is losing blood
somewhere and her whole body is very swollen.
She then received 2 more pints of blood tonight!

So much is going through my mind these past couple weeks.
I'm absolutely terrified!

The other day i went to see her and she told me she talked to God and he said he was ready for her.
How am i suppose to feel about that?

Tears just flooded my eyes...

Please keep my Beautiful Grandmother in your prayers!
My Family & I would deeply appreciate it & also will Grandma.

I Love You Granny!

it's the little things in life

This morning as i'm sitting at the kitchen table i see this:

I teared up because that is such an amazing that she can connect with right now!

Forgot to mention in my last post, the other day I purchased Demi Lovato's book Staying Strong, 

I wanted my mom to read a bit of it. She fell in love!

So i just gave it to her because i knew she really needed something uplifting her spirits.

Shockingly, she is really keeping up with it, day by day :)

it makes me feel amazing that i can do stuff like this for her.

GOD, LOVE HER

Low times...

These past four days have been exhausting.
My Mom has a Herniated Disc in her lower back.
She has been on multiple medications including a pain patch named Fentyl.

The other day my Mom was not able to keep anything down, Not even her pills,
it went on for 3 days [give or take] because she is a stubborn mule & refused to go to the hospital.
 But, she finally gave in because it was just starting to be too much for her.

I'm not going to lie I've cried about everyday because i just have so much fear.
I'm terrified of losing my Mom,
 I'm still working on dealing with the lost of my Poppy, his death happened so fast
& we had no time to process anything.
So yes I'm terrified of something like that happening again.

anyways on with the story...

We found out the Fentyl pain patch, my mom used was hurting her.
She had signs of Fatal Respiratory depression!
Mom was wheezing.
I kept telling her to cough & she said "I've tried nothing is there, that the problem."

BYE BYE FENTYL!!!

Since she has been off the patch which today makes day #4
she has been going through withdraws.

• shakes
• hot
• cold
• anxiety
• nightmares
• PAIN!

the list goes on! 

How long will this continue??

it's 11:03pm right now
this is the first night my mom has not had any problems going to sleep.
[KNOCK ON WOOD]

sitting here in the kitchen till i know it's safe to go to bed.
Her problems have been happening around this time every night.
sooooo, my fingers are crossed.

Today she got pampered.
got her nails done
eyebrows waxed
and just relaxed.

I had to take a pics :)

I LOVE YOU MOMMA SOOO MUCH!!!!

THIS IS ONLY TEMPORARY & IT'S ALMOST OVER.

KEEP FIGHTING!!!

 Please keep her in your prayers through this hard time.

THANK YOU!