"Do not weep at my grave. I'am not there. I ride the wind and walk among the clouds. My pain is gone and replaced with wings. I am with my God and no greater joy is there. Do not weep for what I was. Rejoice at what I have become."

  On this day a year ago at 12:24pm i lost the GREATEST man i known, My Poppy (Grandfather).
It's been a year??
why does it feel like it was just yesterday?

Everyday i still grieve my Grandfather's passing, it just doesn't feel real to me yet. Is that weird? i mean, it goes from spending 24/7 with him, to not seeing him or able to talk to him at all. I remember every single bit of the day he passed.

 Hospice care just arrived at my Grandparent's house. My family was all together & we were all there with Poppy except Daisy, their dog. Poppy was never too fine about having a dog, it just wasn't his thing but my Aunts talked him into it and Daisy absolutely adored Poppy. We knew Poppy loved Daisy, he just didn't want anybody to know. :) We weren't stupid! Anyways,  Daisy was in the backyard and she knew something was going on. So, I decided to let her in. Daisy ran in & went straight to Poppy's bedside, I went over to Poppy and i told him that Daisy was laying right beside him. Poppy then looked at me and just did something weird, i freaked out kinda and got the nurse. Next thing i knew he was gone! I was in a shocked kind of stage at first, but when he passed we all sort of felt relief because we knew he wasn't in pain anymore. I go outside to get some air, come back in the house, look at Poppy and my eyes become a waterfall.

 Millions of things were going through my mind. That can't be my Grandpa! He's suppose to walk me down the aisle at my wedding, see my children... Went over to the bedside where my Grandpa was laying, knelt down, grabbed his cold hand, and just talked to him. I couldn't stop crying nor could i leave him. Then, the funeral home came and i had to leave him. I followed them as they took my Grandpa's body out of the house, into the car and just sat on the steps and watched the van with Poppy's body drive down the street until the car disappeared. More tears just began to run down my face.

  To be honest... I don't know how I can get over his death. So much pain lays inside of me.
I always wonder if he's looking down on me or if i'm making him proud.

   One thing i always tell myself is that he's in heaven & isn't suffering anymore. I need to quit being stubborn. God needed a angel & He wanted Poppy. Poppy will forever be my Guardian Angel.<3

    Poppy, I Love You & Miss You so very much! Rest in Heaven <3