Throwback Thursday!

#PrayersforJennyNicole

  Ive mentioned in one of my post about my best friend Jenny who has been diagnosed with thyroid cancer last month and recently had surgery to remove her thyroid completely. 

Well, last week she began radioactive iodine, which is basically raidation & today she is having a full body scan to see if the cancer is gone and did not spread anywhere else in her body.

I'm just asking everyone to please pray for Jenny today. She's having a hard time grabbing a hold of everything. It has hit everyone hard & fast. 

 

Thanks xoxo

Waffle House post

Sitting here at Waffle House till it's time for me to head to work. I have to visit my Momma :)

 I'm really procrastinating today!

Set my alarm to 10am 

Probably hit the snooze button 8 times

Mornings are so rough for me.

Today I have to do so much laundry! 

Billy's laundry piles up so quick it's ridiculous. Sometimes I think these nurses just throw clean towels or clothes in the dirty laundry just because. 

At Billy's apartment complex they have quarter washers & dryers. 

So were spending 20 dollars every week. it's a bit crazy.

really can't wait to we get a place together. 

i want it to happen right this second but, there is a lot of things we have to get together first.

 Jeez Louise!!

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 My eye is absolutely killing me today. 

Yesterday i got into a fight with my mascara & the brush stabbed me in my eye.

All yesterday i thought it was an eyelash or something. 

This morning woke up and its still there. 

so i investigated 

My eye ball is scratched. 

Love is in the Air....

Valentine's Day really didn't go as i planned. 

Yesterday i worked basically 3 shifts. the aide for one of my clients called off and i bet you can guess who took her place? ME, so i worked her shift, my shift, & was called into my mother's work to help them out with their Valentine's Day dinner and i don't even work there.  Let me explain, My Mom works as a waitress at Waffle House. Past 3 years on Valentine's Day they fancy up the restaurant and people make reservations for a special dinner. it's pretty nice!

Well, they were short on help, so the manager said "Wilma, Call your daughter were desperate" a ring a ding ding and i was in. Working there last night really made me realize how much i miss waitressing. 

A Couple years ago i worked at a Italian Restaurant, I Loved it. But, I was suffering horribly with my panic attacks and anxiety. 

A Lot of people don't understand that Panic Attacks just pop up out of nowhere, you could be in the happiest mood and then you feel like you have been hit by a semi. Don't get me wrong some panic attacks do come on if you over think things or if you are stressed out. While waiting on customers i would  get the worst attacks and they would come out of the blue, 3 or 4 times a night. Never did i panic at that job, i never felt overwhelmed. I Loved it. I had my regular customers everyday.  After 6 months i had to quit that job, I just couldn't bare that feeling every night. 

So it was amazing working last night at Waffle House, I made my mom proud. They call me "Little Wilma" :) This is probably the only time anybody will ever here me say this but, I am just like my mother.

Ekkk that's scaryyy

At the end of the night, i was happy i made some money but I didn't get to spend the whole day with My Valentine but we'll make up for that :)

    

Love You both very much!

Sitting here watching Ellen.
Billy is snoring right beside me.
& I'm waiting for this snow storm to hit
I'm so excited!!

Yes I said excited. I love getting snow storms, i just hate driving in it & having to clean off my car.
  The wind is starting to pick up & it's getting darker. ekkkk :) the weather guy said Columbus could get 4 to 6 & north of Columbus 6 to 10. Hopefully that 6 to 10 comes down into the Columbus area. Meteorologist never really seem to get the weather right 70% of the time. My luck this whole storm will miss us. (knock on wood)
 Enough talking about the snow.

 Billy just woke up and mentioned he was a little cold, there was cold air coming out of the vents, what the heck! went to check the thermostat & its 63 degrees with the AC on. the only people that could have done it is the nurse or the other aide. Freaking go outside if your hot. It's 23 degrees out. They just think about themselves & never about Billy their CLIENT who can't regulate his body temperature. URGHHH

  Lately, I've been trying to figure out some relaxing techniques to just calm my body & not be so tensed up.

I worry constantly about things. Past couple weeks just haven't been good on me physically and mentally. I've had a lot of anger built up, every little things aggravates me. it scares me and i question myself, Am I Bipolar? God, I really hope not.
  January 21st, my best friend, whose been my best friend since 2nd grade was diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer. Right away they had to schedule surgery to remove her Thyroids. Now, she is on a no iodine diet till towards the end of this month.
Losing my Poppy is still very fresh for me, even though its been a year an a half since his passing, I'm just not ready for something like this again in my life. No, she isn't going to die. But, cancer isn't a easy thing no matter the type or stage or who has it. it affects everyone not just that person. Since her diagnoses it seems like its all she can really talk about and its understandable, but too be honest its really getting to me. I want to be supportive and be there for her every step of the way, but what do i do when it starts to bring me down and bring back memories with what my Grandpa had to go through and when i had cancer as a kid?

 NO MATTER what I'm still going to be by her side. I just need help on trying to get me to relax and not tense up through all this that is going on. am' I making sense?

I LOVE YOU JENNY BOO! You are a fighter <3